I’m sure I’m not the only one. Worn down from work, questioning why I chose this path, wanting something to change, but being mentally trapped in the present. It doesn’t help when the security of a good paycheck and benefits dangles above your head. Is the risk of losing that worth the shift brewing in your day dreams?
Not to say every day is misery. There are days of pride and fulfillment for the work done. But these days make up the minority. Can I imagine myself living out my thirty five year career here? Changing roles too early has always gone against my loyal principles, but maybe I’ve been more concerned about loyalty to the company than loyalty to myself. There has to be something off if these feelings are surfacing only 2.5 years since beginning my “adult” life after graduation.
I can’t be too hard on twenty-year-old me because she had no frame of reference nor the knowledge back then. But given the current knowledge and experience makes it easier to recognize that now is the time for something to change. What that is exactly, I don’t know. That’s why I’m here writing to share with you and discover my skill or lack there of. And spending countless hours researching (a favorite pasttime of a curious wannabe-intellect) – articles, Youtube, finding courses to take, dabbling here and there. Identifying those interests of mine that I never made appropriate and healthy time for earlier in life.
Burnout is the buzz word for this downtrodden, unmotivated outlook on your reaponsibilities. Could it be because we feel used and abused by our corporate undertakers or because this isn’t how we were meant to live?
Change is coming.
Coffee with the Cats 